I stand on the balcony with God, my friend amd the man I love from my past.I argue with mt friend.the ocean is burning with eed and yellow fire against the indogo sky.I curse the man I love saying: because you sorted out your life so quickly after I was gone it will last only a short time and then it will be broken.and I shout to God:why did you take him away from me?! I cry,the tears running down my face.I wake up because I sob loudly I cry so hard I wake up-all in tears. Today I find out that the man I love has another child while I have been pronounced infertile...